April 2011
13 posts
a sad day
God is so good. i feel like i’ve received so much healing today because i was able to see so many ppl that matter a lot to me. i reallie love the people that are in my life…and i wish i could tell them how much they mean to me…but i think i’m just in denial still and i’d rather not go there right now. it’ll be too sad…and then i won’t have the...
myonlyhope
do u ever feel like disappearing off the face of the earth?
i do.
please don’t take it personally world. i’m just a mess and i’d like to be erased for a bit.
goodbye.
psalm 42
1 As the deer longs for streams of water, so I long for you, O God. 2 I thirst for God, the living God. When can I go and stand before him? 3 Day and night I have only tears for food, while my enemies continually taunt me, saying, “Where is this God of yours?”
4 My heart is breaking as I remember how it used to be: I walked among the crowds of worshipers,...
star
one person i’d reaaaaaaaallie like to see…..LEE HYORI.
i might just freeze if i see her…with my mouth hanging open like an idiot. smh…i dunno why i feel so small around celebrities. -.-
airport fashion
how can u wear skirts and shorts when ur traveling????? it’s soooo cold in airplanes! i bet they change into sweats when they get on~ LOL.
my biggest concern right now is….i dunno how to pack my bags. -.- i don’t want them to get crushed and i don’t want to risk packing them with my checked-in suitcases. i’ll have to carry all of them. ...
ISO
a little creepy, no?? it’s odd…but i’m drawn to this pic. i’m beginning to learn more about LIGHTING when it comes to taking pics. :)
i might be stuck in the airport for 6 hrs cuz my flight is at 6am and i don’t want my dad waking up at 3 when he has to start his day at 5 for work. soooo…i plan on reading my manual for my dslr.
finally, right? ...
one week left
we got a call today. i might be babysitting my cousins for a week… -.- i mean normally i wouldn’t mind but…..i’m finally recovering from my toothache…..and i have so much to do still.
my parents keep asking me to postpone by plane ticket…but there’s no way.
NO WAY. :)
guilty pleasure
i ordered this online last week. :X it’s so beautiful…i can’t wait to hold it. :D~~ (that’s me drooling). and if it doesn’t come in time…i’ll have my mom ship it to me. HAHA. :X
wish
i wish i had green eyes and blond hair. :) yum~
too bad black hair looks so dull on me. some asians look reaaaaaaaallie good with black hair cuz of their porcelain skin. mmm…so i was going to get my hair done tomorrow but my mom won’t let meeeeeeeeeeeeee. she wants me to get it done in korea instead. :( i’m so sad. now i’ll have to take a risk with my...
flow
making my plane playlist right now…
i have one suitcase packed & ready to go. i have to buy 2 more tomorrow so i can pack those too. it feels reallie weird. my whole life fitting in 3 suitcases…and a few boxes. :) mm…i’m starting to feel sad about leaving my parents. sad…
give me boldness, Lord. :) i’m such a wuss.
i’m listening to...
i'm aliiiiiive!!
at least for 2 hrs. took anacin. :) milk helps.
i just watched a video about a little boy going to heaven. man…and i’m reading a book about this woman’s experience in heaven. i kno last year or so i was attacked for my beliefs about it…people even accused me of being a false teacher. LOL, but i still believe that we can go to heaven now. :) cuz i kno wut i’ve...
have mercy
so the pain’s been so bad i took anacin all day yesterday but the problem is…the med is so strong it hurts my stomach. the side effects of the med is a bleeding stomach. uhhh…scary. so i’ve been drinking a loooooooot of water. but today i woke up to a bigger problem - i can’t chewwwwwwww. my nerves are shot. man…i’m scared.
i prob have more root...
March 2011
19 posts
thank You, Lord!!
:) i kno i’ve been keeping korea a secret from some people…but it was mostly cuz of my mom. my dad wanted me to keep it a secret cuz he was afraid that my mom would flip out. i didn’t mind but i guess i didn’t want my dad to suffer for 2 months cuz of me. ahhh but God is sooooo sooooooo good cuz i kept praying…”Lord, if this is reallie ur will for me then i...
just kill me
i was in so much pain for 3 days….
i dunno which tooth it is but omggggggggggggg…can i just rip my nerves out now?! it hurts so much even tylenol doesn’t help.
i just came back from the dentist for another root canal visit and i was given 2 shots to numb my gums. can’t feel a thiiiiing right now but if the pain comes back tonight…i’m gonna cry myself to...
beautiful
to put our hope in Jesus…having Him as our foundation.
God…i want more.
3.27.2011
two and a half years….
it’s been a real challenge Lord…but thank u for stretching me because along with all the suffering & fear that i had to face…i found something greater. :) every face that comes to mind right now made it worth it Lord. my family…the yg…it was reallie worth it God. :) i feel like…there’s no way to trade this...
TANGLED
i just watched TANGLED. i loooove loooooove the lantern partttt! ahhh…it’s so pretty~ i never knew there was an annual lantern lighting festival in korea until i watched the drama - dr. champ. ever since then i’ve wanted to go light one up tooooo but i guess i missed it this year? :( i hear it takes place in march.
ahhh…the movie was reallie good. i love how...
$^@$%$!!
last thing before i sleep…
i was stressing out for 3 days cuz i put off filing my tax return out of pure laziness (i was actually tempted to not file it at all), but then i did some research and i found out that there’s a huge fine if u don’t file ur taxes! :X yikes…i’m so glad that i got my act together! whew~ i’m totally living in His grace!
so i...
bare burger
so i get these awesome emails from groupon that inform me of the latest NY deals…and i guess today was BURGER day in ny. :) yum…and since my best friend and i were planning to have a staycation for a week before my leave…i thought…this is peeeeerfect! i wanna try bare burger…it looks gooood! ostrich meat?? i’m not so sure but…$12 for a $25 meal?! ...
loser?
dad brought home yummmmy korean pastries todayyyyy and i was happily taking pics of it cuz it’s one of the many things i cherish about my dad. :) i feel his love most when he takes care of my needs…esp when it comes to foooooooooood cuz i grew up under my dad’s care more than my mom’s.
my mom was always busy working at the store but my dad used to come home in the...
jk
i’m back for more. one more post before bed? why not…
i love their style. not all of it but sometimes…they look AMAAAAZING. :) i wish i had a twin sister or just a sister that i can share things with.
so did i ever tell u why i love korea so much? it’s cuz korea’s the ONLY place that has stuff like this…!
omg….i just squealed. :) 2 weeks...
sleep deprived
i should be sleeping right now…i dunno why i’m up. i guess i have a lot on my mind…and on top of that my tooth hurts so bad. ugh…..my tooth feels cold. it’s one of those pains that gives u the creeps. yesterday i went to the dentist to fix my cavity. another $100 gone. :( i’ve been visiting the dentist weekly now. boo.
the dentist told me i should...
i'm ready...
“Move out of your comfort zone. You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new.”
for a while i’ve been nervous about my decision to leave new york…but as time draws nearer i feel more sure about things. :) it has my name written all over it. this is good. my love for korea is growing each day and now there’s no hesitation.
...
like a child
:)
countdown: 4 weeks
today i am cleaning out my whoooooooole room! i started yesterday but i made a bigger mess of things. :P it’s a little strange how everything is coming to an end. a graaaaand closure huh? no more car…no more home…no more job…no more nyc.
new house (for my parents)…new place (korea - for me)…and a new job.
so to celebrate this NEWWWWWWWWW life of...
:(
earthquakes and tsunamis….
let’s pray together.
huh?
i just realized…i lost all my comments and likes on my tumblr. where’d they go??? o.O
ok nvm….they keep appearing and disappearing.
:)
i can’t put it all into wooooords but… :)))))))
i’m so very thankful and i’m feeling reallie blessed at the moment. it’s been a little weird lately…i’ve been feeling like a paper airplane. lol…i feel like i haven’t put much thought into anything…feeling so emotionless…aimless. i don’t kno wut to feel or wut to do with...
February 2011
31 posts
His voice
His heart…..
there’s no place quite like it…
be my resting place.
HAHA
God’s reallie funnie. He knows just wut we need. mmm..
3 years
it took her 3 yrs before she got her break. once i figure out wut i wanna do with my life…i’m gonna go after it with everything i’ve got. i was looking up all of these american artists…cuz i’ve only been into korean music for the looongest time. anyway, i came across one of her interviews…and she was saying how the rejection from the record companies was...
sunshine
i remember a friend of mine used to call me “sunshine”….that was my nickname. :) haha~ it makes me laugh when i think about it now. sunshine…ariel…beautiful. wut great names… :) thanks friends. i’ll try to remember who i am. thanks for giving me moments that i can cherish.
so tonight i booked my place. flight booked. place booked. it’s...
all good things come to an end...
i think dream high is ending soon. it makes me so sad…but MAN have these characters grown on me. i love each one…and by each i mean all EIGHT (teachers included). :) ahhhh…esp today’s episode with eunjung’s story - totally one of my favs.
i love when evil/broken girl realizes that life’s not so bad after all…and love and hope finally reaches her...
miss A fever
countdown: 49 days
:) puhahahaha…i hate to admit it but i’m loving this group. more than t-ara, fx, and 2ne1. i kno i kno…crazy huh? :))) well i don’t like snsd, kara, wondergirls, after school and all the other girl groups…but to beat 2ne1…that’s a big deal~!!! :)
anyway..i’m home and there’s nothing ever to eat so i’m on a...
mood: happy
right now…this is good.
slurp
for once i’m not jealous of the californians cuz we’ve got 60 degree weather here in NYC. woot woot! i could go for some ice creammmmmm! i’ll save it for tomorrow~ i’m gonna stuff myself till i drop. chipotle, pizza, hotdogs, icecream, shawafel (maybe), japanese ramen, takoyaki, burgers & fries…..oh wut?! :) jp…that’s a looooot of food but...
hello?
faith….?? where’d u go?
merissa’s looking for u….she wants u to come back. she NEEDS u.
for nothing is impossible with God, right? i want to be excited about this year…but i’m so worried that it’ll just be the same. i was praying last night…and i was faced with a reallie sad reality. i’ve lost faith in seeing things change for the...
getaway
my heart’s been acting funnie. :( i’m having trouble breathingggggggg. i wonder if i’m having anxiety attacks or…..something else. it would be nice to go on a real vacation rather than staying home for 2 weeks. ahhhhhh! i wanna see the BLUE ocean. :) crystal clear waterrrrrrrr. ahhhhhh~ :D
:D
my dad brings home the best korean snacks everrrrrrrrr! gorehbap~~~~ nom nom. :) so i don’t think i can fix my sleeping habit. i reallie tried…but my body’s so used to waking up at 6pm. ugh.
so i found this amazing food blog….and i guess the person in charge of it looooves pizza and chocolate desserts which i can’t complain about cuz i love them...
new look
this summer i’m going BLONDE. :) lalalaaaaa~
i’ve been waiting for this moment. i hate when it turns out all ugly…like when it’s too yellow or too…dirty looking? i want it to have that soft look and i want it to blend well with my skin. eek! it’s kind of scary to take the risk…but…i’m sure it’ll be alright.
stressed
when ur stressed and anxious….just turn up the music and throw ur hands down. hollaaaaa~ haha. :) i’m stressing about everything lately….i must remember to breaaaaathe. take a deep breath, merissa. it’s gonna be ok.
i reallie love 2ne1. they’re such a chill girl group. :)
i'm so hungry
someone feed meeeeeeeeeee :(
wow
so i guess if i don’t use my electric blanket…i can sleep for a veryyyyyyy long time. my toothache’s been bothering me for 5 days now. it’s NONSTOP pain…and all i want to do is escape by sleeping it away. it’s like having a headache and going to sleep with it…only to find it still with u in the morning. ughhhh.
but i still want icecreammmmmmmmm. :)
delighted
joy is beginning to bubble up inside of me. :)
i feel so much peace in my heart. a peace i haven’t felt in a looooooong time. am i reallie going after my dreams? mmm…my own. :) i can’t stop smiling about it.
this time i won’t give up so easily.