God is so good.  i feel like i’ve received so much healing today because i was able to see so many ppl that matter a lot to me.  i reallie love the people that are in my life…and i wish i could tell them how much they mean to me…but i think i’m just in denial still and i’d rather not go there right now.  it’ll be too sad…and then i won’t have the heart to leave.  i’m so sad…this is now my last day….and i’m sooooo sooooooo sad this day has finally come.  :(  my heart feels so heavy…i dunno how i’ll travel alone tom.  sad.

do u ever feel like disappearing off the face of the earth?

i do.

please don’t take it personally world.  i’m just a mess and i’d like to be erased for a bit. 

goodbye.

 ¹ As the deer longs for streams of water,
      so I long for you, O God.
 ² I thirst for God, the living God.
      When can I go and stand before him?
 ³ Day and night I have only tears for food,
      while my enemies continually taunt me, saying,
      “Where is this God of yours?”

 ⁴ My heart is breaking
      as I remember how it used to be:
   I walked among the crowds of worshipers,
      leading a great procession to the house of God,
   singing for joy and giving thanks
      amid the sound of a great celebration!

 ⁵ Why am I discouraged?
      Why is my heart so sad?
   I will put my hope in God!
      I will praise him again—
      my Savior and ⁶ my God!

   Now I am deeply discouraged,
      but I will remember you—
   even from distant Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan,
      from the land of Mount Mizar.
 ⁷ I hear the tumult of the raging seas
      as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.
 ⁸ But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me,
      and through each night I sing his songs,
      praying to God who gives me life.

 ⁹ “O God my rock,” I cry,
      “Why have you forgotten me?
   Why must I wander around in grief,
      oppressed by my enemies?”
 ¹⁰ Their taunts break my bones.
      They scoff, “Where is this God of yours?”

 ¹¹ Why am I discouraged?
      Why is my heart so sad?
   I will put my hope in God!
      I will praise him again—
      my Savior and my God!

one person i’d reaaaaaaaallie like to see…..LEE HYORI. 

i might just freeze if i see her…with my mouth hanging open like an idiot.  smh…i dunno why i feel so small around celebrities.  -.-

how can u wear skirts and shorts when ur traveling?????  it’s soooo cold in airplanes!  i bet they change into sweats when they get on~ LOL. 

my biggest concern right now is….i dunno how to pack my bags.  -.-  i don’t want them to get crushed and i don’t want to risk packing them with my checked-in suitcases.  i’ll have to carry all of them.  HAHAHA…sigh…i’m gonna look so crazy.

now there’s no way to hide all my bags from my mom.  she’s gonna kill me when she sees it all….but it’s ok.  i’ll have like 2 hrs with her before i leave.  :X

a little creepy, no??  it’s odd…but i’m drawn to this pic.  i’m beginning to learn more about LIGHTING when it comes to taking pics.  :) 

i might be stuck in the airport for 6 hrs cuz my flight is at 6am and i don’t want my dad waking up at 3 when he has to start his day at 5 for work. soooo…i plan on reading my manual for my dslr. 

finally, right?  u’d think that if u bought something..u’d read the book so u kno how to use it.  HAHA.  man…i need to fix that about myself.  gotta get rid of this LAZINESS.

:)  i also have a book that joe lyu and peter got me for my 25th (?) or 26th (??????) bday.  haha..i’ll read that toooooo~

we got a call today.  i might be babysitting my cousins for a week… -.-  i mean normally i wouldn’t mind but…..i’m finally recovering from my toothache…..and i have so much to do still. 

my parents keep asking me to postpone by plane ticket…but there’s no way. 

NO WAY.  :)

i ordered this online last week.  :X  it’s so beautiful…i can’t wait to hold it.  :D~~ (that’s me drooling).  and if it doesn’t come in time…i’ll have my mom ship it to me.  HAHA.  :X

i wish i had green eyes and blond hair.  :)  yum~

too bad black hair looks so dull on me.  some asians look reaaaaaaaallie good with black hair cuz of their porcelain skin.  mmm…so i was going to get my hair done tomorrow but my mom won’t let meeeeeeeeeeeeee.  she wants me to get it done in korea instead.  :(  i’m so sad.  now i’ll have to take a risk with my hair…gotta go salon shopping.  LOL.

let’s see….first thing i wanna do when i get to apgujeong….issssssss…..get some froyo at twosome place with those almonds sprinkled on top.  yum.

then go to the galleria to buy some metchnikoff & bulgaris yogurt…maybe get some street food orrrrr get a bulgogi burger from mcd’s across the street.  but if i’m reallie craving pizza hut…i’ll walk a bit.  it’s so worth it.  hmm…maybe i’ll go to doota at night too!  :D  do some midnight shopping if i have jetlag.  omg omg…i’m gonna walk everywhereeeeeeeee!  :)  maybe i’ll get my phone first.  gaaaaah~ i’m getting too excited. 

maaaaaan…i miss apgujeong.  it’s another place i can call “home.”  well…sort of.  :)

this one’s my favorite.  :)